Haven't a clue how to turn it around

peeking back in before looking for morning threads, I read,

"I fucked up this venture 10 ways to Sunday....and the worst part.....
I dragged my entire Family along with it......
Salvage...is going to be a TOTAL FUCKING BITCH...." -Richard

Me too, seriously. For nineteen years. And I haven't a clue how to turn it around.

I will believe my divine Father has a plan, the one good plan; I don't know what it is; as with Job and his friends, no one can tell me; but my Father knows, and knew from eternity I would arrive here now, so I can only trust as completely as my shriveled sinner's heart can trust, praying to receive merciful guidance of which I have proven unworthy over a lifetime. Keeps me going.